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um. wtf. where the fucking hell to start. fuck fuck fuck. my dad has been fucking pissing me off so much. i'm fucking exhausted. emotionally, more than physically. my dad has been fucking pushing me to my limits. it's like he's testing me, waiting for me to crack so he can fucking mold me into the grotesque figure that he is. fuck, i'm not even fucking making sense anymore.
fucking lj deleted all of my fucking post. fuck. i have to try to remember everything i typed.
okay. so. you can tell that i'm mad at my dad, right? right. so we're on the same page. alright. this has been going on for a while, but the part i'm bitching about right now happened today. well, yesterday.
we (my stepmom patty, my step-sister heather, my dad and i) were driving home from a 4-day trip from some gay-ass little place in saskatchewan. so heather was feeling sick, and started getting some killer gas. fuck it was bad. so anyway, being the only guy in the car besides my dad, they automatically blame it all on me. i knew it was heather, but i wasn't about to say "well, heather did it", because that would embarass the hell out of her. i don't know. but anyway. she kept doing it, and my dad threatened to take my allowance away for a month if i don't stop. no fucking joke. so i finally said that it was heather who did it, but her fucking stepmom, who treats her like a princess, disagreed and said that "ladies don't flatulate", with all her proper english and all that fucking shit. so i got pinned with the blame and lost my allowance. fucking perfect. and yes, the preceding story was 100% true.
okay. so we finally dropped them off at their house after a grueling 9 hours of steve-bashing. anyway, it turns out that the final exam i wrote last thursday was lost. fuck. i wrote it with a fucking teacher at lunch because i was sick and had to get on the city transit for 2 horus to get to school just so i could write the fucking thing. run-on sentences are god. anyway, the fucking dillhole lost my exam, and she denies the whole thing. she said that she wasn't even in the library at the time. fucking lying whore. so anyway, the school phones my dad, my dad thinks i'm lying to him, another month's allowance gone, and i got into a huge fucking fight with him. then at dinner i tried to just ignore him but that also blew his fuse and i ended up doing chores all night, with only a bit of time for homework. so i was sitting on the couch, and he screams at me to work at the kitchen table. fuck. they're about a metre apart. does it fucking matter? the couch is more comfortable anyway. so i finally move my stuff to the table, and then it's time for fucking bed.
fuck i'm ranting. basically, to sum everything up, my dad's a prick who deserves to be shot twice in the third leg and left in a ditch to suffer until his death. and i'm fucking serious.
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[19 Apr 2004|01:36am] |
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hmm. i'm so tired. i just had this huge conversation with rachel, regarding my family and my fucked up life. she's amazing. she could be a psychologist, easily. she'd be a hell of a lot better than the one i have now. anywho, that made me feel a lot better.
there's not much to say here. i got a lot off my chest tonight and it's the best fucking feeling in the world. a little place to vent can do a world of a good.
oh. i realized today that i can't tell certain people things because these certain people think that they know what they're talking about, but they really don't. it makes them sound like fucking idiots. i know it sounds very vague, but i don't want to go into much detail. feelings can get hurt, etc. etc. and you know me. i'm just mr. kind.
alright. that's about all, i guess. i love you all.
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[17 Apr 2004|12:27am] |
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happening that stopped me from updating this. i bet it was god's will. i hate god.
holy shit. the past while has been really eventful. i think the last time i updated this was before spring break... so i guess i should start there.
for spring break, my sister and i went to my grandma and grandpa's house in medicine hat. we took the greyhound, and we left at about 8:30 am. we were supposed to get there at 12:00, but we ended up stopping in this small town brooks for 2 and a half hours, because of some antifreeze leak or something gay like that. pfft. what a great start to my spring break.
so we got some mcdonalds. i love mcdonalds. it makes the world go round. gotta love those fajitas.
anywho. we ended up getting to medicine hat at around 3:00. went to my grandma's house and sat around for a bit. played a bit of cards. played some jeopardy with my grandma. haha. that's all i ever do when i'm over there. but i'm not complaining. it was fun until the rest of my family came.
they came two days after we arrived, and patty ended up coming. fuck. she ruined the whole break. she's such a bitch. i hate her so much. but it doesn't matter. i was always on the opposite side of the house from her. :) i wonder if she was smart enough to realize that i was doing that on purpose. nah.
as we were going back home on the 11th of april, and my birthday was on the 13th, we celebrated my birthday there. got really good presents, although my brother and sister completely forgot about my birthday and ended up giving me an IOU they made me an hour earlier. but i don't care. my dad forgot too, so i didn't have a cake. no biggie. it's typical of my dad, though. that stupid dumb ape.
the ride home was boring. ended up reading a book i got for my birthday.
tuesday the 13th rolled around, and that was the day we had to go back to school. my birthday. yes. how utterly perfect. but it was good. a bunch of my friends pooled their money and got me a giant personalized ice cream cake from dairy queen, and rachel got me a cd that i've wanted for the longest time. i love them all. made me feel so awesome. i even got a custom-made birthday hat. :)
...and nothing really happened until thursday.
on thursday we got our report cards. i ended up, as i expected, getting a 50 in social, and my dad was really pissed. like. REALLY pissed. so he made me have increased time with the psychologist, because according to him i have some kind of 'problem'. fuck. and he stopped me from going on these two trips. thankfully he changed his mind today. but it pissed me off, damnit.
alright. finally to today's news. :) school was shit. the worst day at school ever for some fucking reason. i don't even know why. but it sucked.
i got off school at 12:20 today, so i got home and relaxed for a while. mom came and picked me up, and here i am. i got my birthday present from mom... holy shit. an mp3 player. i got so fucking spoiled this birthday. pretty surprising, considering that i'm such an asshole.
but i think you're done with reading about my life for now. :) thanks for listening. i love you all.
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[22 Mar 2004|12:37am] |
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weerd. :) this is steve, yo.
eh. this is my first post thing on my brand spankin' new lj. so i think i'll go with the flow with what other people are saying on here and bitch out and be all emo and shit.
i'm so fucking bored. it's 12:30 in the morning on a monday and i'm pissed at my fucking caffiene addiction. once again it's combined with my insomnia and made me really pissed.
i like to randomly jump from subject to subject.
i think i'm in love with rachel. haha. her and i got into a big conversation... a couple nights ago, i think. she's awesome. i don't know what i'd do without her. and simmy, of course. :) simmy's great.
yeah. rachel and i thought it would be cool if we pranked alexis. sure, it was funny and all. but i'm all filled with regret and shame and shit. now she's all pissed at me and i hate myself for it.
i hate my dad.
i can't wait for out of your mouth's cd to come out. too bad it comes out in a month and a half or something gay like that. i'm seriously counting down the days.
so. i was randomly looking at peoples' lj's. haha. elvira snirdly. what a sexy sounding 50 year old hippie. gertrude. :) go read her lj. her account's elvira.
alright. well i'm done for now. i'm just going to chat it up with simmy, pickle and alexis. yep. bye now.
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